I've been telling people that I'm doing fine with her going to kindergarten, and I really thought I was. I've been more emotional than I thought I would be this morning. It's not so much that I'm sad she's going to school; I'm happy that she gets to be there and have the opportunity to learn. I'm okay with her growing up.
I'm not okay with all the influences that I can't protect her from now. Just standing at the bus-stop with her this morning I was listening to much older elementary boys saying things I'd rather she not hear, all while climbing the stop sign. I just hate that I won't be involved in a lot of her life now. I won't get to protect her from certain bad influences. For a few hours a day now, she's on her own.
I've been trying to act super-excited for her, because she's a pretty emotional girl and I didn't want her to get any more worried than she normally is. I'm praying hard this morning that she has a really great first day. Maybe tomorrow I won't follow the bus in my car like the crazy, over-protective mother I always swore I wouldn't become. :)
Kaiya...
All the girls...
On the bus (see her little face in the window?)...
Claire's face when Kaiya left...
6 comments:
It sounds like you are handling it far better than most! She looks so cute and happy! I too hope that she has a great first day!
If those boys keep it up, remind Dennis that it is his responsibility to pick them up by their ankles and throw them into your pond.
I think that sums up how I feel about school for my kids. Even now that Emma is 8 (yikes!) That thought worries me daily!
Kaiya is just a little beauty queen!
Kaiya's cute! It'll get easier having her in school. She'll love it.
I think your face in that picture of Claire showing her sad face is much more telling! The first is always the hardest. But it'll get easier.
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