Doing something right...

As I think all mom's often do, I occasionally have doubts about this whole mothering thing. For all I know I'm completely ruining my children. Although I like to think I'm doing a decent job, really this is just a trial-and-error kind of thing.

Really what I want most is to have children that are kind to others and compassionate. I have some very blunt daughters (wonder where they got that from?) and there've been multiple times where they've said something not-so-cute, such as, "Mommy, why is your tummy still squishy when there's no baby in there anymore? It's gross!"

Or from Kaiya, as I walk down the stairs, "Are you really going to wear THAT?"

I'm used to these little munchkins and their need to express an opinion on EVERYTHING I see, do, or wear.

As most everyone knows I've had a couple of surgeries on my throat area this past year. The first surgery was healing up quite well, but the second hasn't. It's a pretty nasty, very visible scar - and frankly I have a hard time with it. I almost always wear a necklace or scarf to cover it, or at the very least use multiple layers of makeup to make it less noticeable. I just don't want it to be the first thing people see when they look at me. I'm still pretty sensitive about it.

Anyway, because of all these efforts I've taken to hide it as much as possible, even my children don't see it very often. Today I was half-dressed and cleaning my house. Emmie (my four year old) came up to me with a thoughtful expression on her face and said, "Mom, is that owie on your neck EVER going to get better?" I said, "No Em, it's probably always going to be there." Her eyebrows furrowed, she cocked her head, and I prepared myself for one of the ADORABLE little comments I've grown used to over these last few years of raising children. Instead she said, "Hmm, well, I still think you're pretty, Mommy."

Then I cried like an idiot and was reminded yet again how much I love being a mom.